TiFfAnEy RoCkS EvErYoNe'S SoX!

3:23pm: Job.....Guys....Love
MAN I NEED A FRICKEN JOB! You just don't understand! Like i wanna go shopping 24/7 and i can't cause i don't have a job! But i did see something in the paper today about making 8 dollors an hour! i was like OMG i want that job! Lol But i htink i like call people ya know? But i need to check up on that! But n e ways! Man o man its gloomy ouside its done nothing but rained the last week basically. But then it will be all sunny and u THINK your going to the beach and u start to get ready and it rains again! it sucks! And my life has been nothing but hell! Seriously ... like nothing has ever gone right ... Its a long story!!! But i mean i always managae to screw up things with Ryan. Thats my best friend. My boyfriend of almost a year. and my brother. He means everything to me and i always fuck things up with me and him and i hate it. It just sounds like a good idea at the time! And then i do it and regret it kinda! But i dunno. I was buzzing and i let me mind take over and yeah granted petty is a good guy. i don't think i see me and him being like how me and ryan were. And thats what i realize. The thing that sucks about me and ryan is that we are all that each other has. So say me and him are fighting there is no one to talk to about our problems but each other. Like no one listens and understands the way me and him do! I mean i woke up thinking about everything and almost crying cause i KNOW i did wrong and i KNOW i fucked up with me and him and whenever i make it better i screw it up again! BUT NO MORE! i am done with guys! No matter what i will always have ryan and i think this is the last time ryan will take me and back and make it all better so i think its him.... thats the person i should be with. I have made my mind up! I mean he does the sweetest things like no one would ever do cause they should cheesy! BUT REALLY THEY MEAN SOMETHING. LIke on Valentines Day. I was suppose to be grounded cause my parents found out me and himhave sex. But they let me go over there. I went over there and it seemed like he got me the world! Everything was laid out next to his bed. Candy...Chocolate... lingerie...a teddy bear....balloons... EVERYTHING! I cried! Then mine and his song is My best friend by tim mcgraw. And we went up to the bonus room....((our palce)) and he was like brb... he came back put in our song and laid there with me. I cried ...just knowing no one could ever be as sweet as he is.. Just loooking at him brings a smile to my face. I can tell him whatever no matter if its good or bad. The last time he came down and stayed with me he wrote me like a poem. He had to do it at school like write about something that u love or something and he wrote me like a book. I cried... he makes me happy. He has never made me cry sad tears... i do all that. I mess things up and i dont want that to happen again. EVER! i woke up and started watching the newlyweds... i was like thats me and him... but instead of nick and jessica... its tiffaney and ryan.... seriously no joke everything they do is us! And i like it! I smile!!! I need ryan... so thats my conclusion! And thats what i have needed to say for the 3 months he has been gone!! :-D

Luv Always, Tiffaney

11:33am: Feeling GOOOOOOOOD!!!
Actually i don't feel good.. I'M SICK! And i think one of my friends MArk got me sick! Even tho me and him don't kiss lol i don't know how it happened! Well ia m going to type for yesterday cause i was really tired and not feeling good yesterday! I feel so good today like something has been lifted off my shoulders! I think i am so happy to be moving back!! MAn o man! I'm happy!
Yesterday i sat around the house most of the day be cause i didn't feel good! I talked to Ryan allll day yesterday which felt really good cause i haven't done that with him in god knows when! Then i was playing Grand Theft Auto 111... and he was tell me all these pass code thingys so different things would happen. Like this one that he told me i changed into a girl in a string bikini!! lol Then my car could fly and another i was driving on the water!! lol After that i finished my board! I have been painting it zebra print all the way around it and i swear it was like a 3 day thing with BIG breaks in the middle! It looks good now and i am putting pics but i really don't wanna do anything until i get my 3 cameras from wal mart! yay!! After that i sat around watching the ol boob tube! Then i went upsatirs and talked to Reeanne, Missy, and Emily. OMG i miss them soooo much! I Miss everyone! Everyday i picture what my life would be like if i had them here with me and GOD IT WOULD BE FUN! But i know i have to wait just a little bit longer! lol Then after i gave Reeanne a ring and talked to her. After i was scared but i called Erik. I haven't talked to this guy in like 7 months! And we dated 1 year before i left. It was fun while it lasted! Man we talked forever! It was great! He was making fun of me cause of my accent thats i DON'T HAVE! Man o man! But yeah thats my night after i got off the phone with him about 11:30 i played some grand theft auto and then went to sleep! Well i will talk to ya'lll later and tell ya about my day today!!! Luv Yas!! Miss ya cali people!

Luv Always, Tiffaney!

6:11pm: Wow! I'm a bum!!!
Man everything is going nuts!!! I think i have an ear infection!! They hurt really bad!! Like you know when u stick a q-tip in ur ear too far? Thats how it feels! And it hurts... and i think because of that i don't feel good. Man god i hate it when my sister doesn't feel good then my parents start bitching at me!! Its like i know ur under stress and ur going to be under alot more if u keep yelling cause i will walk out!! And i hate it! I broke up with Petty today... i feel really bad cause he liked me. But i mean it feels like we are two different people like hes working alot while i am having fun with my friends. And then when i do see him he wants to chill and i wanna still have fun i guess. I just need to be single. Man i talked to Ryan last night and we're cool now. Friends and stuff. I miss him tho like as bad as i don't wanna admit it. i miss the kid. Hes the only one i can really relate to ya know?? Like i can be with him allllll day and call him when i get home and still be talking and laughing. Its crazy. Man i have been thinking about Cali tho alot! i miss it and my friends. God i have had some good times there! And the weird thing is is that the people u thought u could live without and u wished would go away and u would never miss.... u suddenly do. Like i have people tell me all the time they miss me and it makes me feel wanted and happy. I think i took life there for granted. And i should have done some stuff and that i didn't do while i was there. I miss it and i wanna go back and visit!! Yeah.... but my parents have been under stress and i think i am going to stay home and clean the house and stuff. There is suppose to be a party out in Clareton but nahhh. i mean i know i need a job and stuff i feel totally spoiled! And i almost cried cause i heard my mom say i don't know about Mallory and my job. And hes like well i will get another job if i have to ya know? I ALMOST CRIED! I hate it i wish everything bad would go away at least for one day!! Well i am going to go clean and put some swimmers ear in my ear cause it hurts!!!

Luv always, Tiffaney

11:07pm: SuMmEr Of 2004 PIMP NIGGA!
Man o Man! Summer is finally here!!! And I'm getting over Ryan! He is being a dick and saying shit about me so SCREW HIM! Me and Petty.... well his name is Justin .... we are together now! Hes so cute! And sweet! Hes a good guy and i know no matter what he will be there for me! So its a deal! I haven't written in this thing in like forever! yeah well the whole guy thing is working out good i guess! I like being with Petty.. hes quite kinda til u get to know him hes soft spoken... like 2 inches taller than me... brown hair green eyes... gotee mustachs ((however u spell it)) and hes a all around good guy!!! Yeah and he got this new job and hes never gonna see me... yeah he will but i just say that... I just got home from hanging with the fellas. Justin, Petty, Blake, and Wesley. We watched dumb and dumberer and ate at sonic and wendy's. I went shopping today and got 3 shirts... at Abercrombie... UNDER $20! amazing!!! But like a couple days ago i went bowling again and i got like 3 strikes.. not really but i came in 2 place once and tied with Petty!:-D lol Yeah my dad is talking about letting me come to cali this christmas... and shizznit it will be fun fun fun then hes like ur momm doesn't like it here so we might move back after u graduate... i was like OKAY! I wanna but then i don't. cause i will be leaving everyone. And i KNOW things there aren't the same. I just don't know i take each day as it comes now! Screw the world if they don't like me as i am fucking them1!! Yeppers My little sister is sick again. i hate it! She gets fevers and breaks out. She was REALLY REALLY BAD in cali. And erik helped me thro it. I cried every night i remember. And now its happening again. I feel sorry for her. And i wanna help but i can't. I want her to be better! Thats all i want! And its been putting stress on my rents... i can tell. And now her summer is ruined kinda. But yeah.... i need a job!!! I think i am going to go work at BI LO! LOL i have no where else to!! Seriously!!! Well its like 11:30 so i am going to go to bed!! Lifes good life great... if i was fat i would want come cake... lol okay i'm tired so i will talk to u guys tomarrow!!!

GOODNIGHT!!!

Luv Always, Tiffaney

9:45pm: Man everything is going fast!
Hey everyone! I think this school year has gone super duper fast! First i went to Praise Christain Academy. Then got kinda kicked out then i came to bc! And its great! But its going way to fast and the next thing i know i will be 40 years old with 100 kids trying to eat my pudding in a old person's home! Yeah but i mean my senior year is going to suck there will only be like 5 friends of mine there and stuff. Oh well! Man Friday is our last day and i'm excited! I'm driving to school tomarrow so i don't have to be there til 9:20 and then i get out at 1:36! yay!! I guess everything is going okay! I haven't talked to Ryan nor do i want to! School is my main focus and guys don't have to be my life they are just in it. I am realizing that. But also most of my friends or the people i hang out with are guys. So i need to kinda watch it in a sense! But its all good i love them all! There isn't really much to say i kinda feel weird. I'm tired and i think thats the reason i haven't been feeling good but its okay it will only get better... people tell me. I think if its meant to be it will happen don't try to make it happen cause it will only get worse. I think i need to take my own advice... but then i like getting it from others to see what they have to say. I have a joke tho!!! WHY DON'T ELEPHANTS LIKE PLAYING CARDS IN THE JUNGLE??? THERE ARE TOO MANY...CHEETAHS!! lmao that one gets me every time! lol Well i am going to go cause i need to study and re paint my toenails cause last night i did them at 11:30 and fell asleep and now they are messed up!! lol And Petty is suppose to be calling me! So i will catch ya on the flip!

Luv always, Tiffaney

Do whatcha gotta do!!!:-D

Yay only like 2 1/3 days of school yes i know that sounds weird but thats the way it is!!!.... really!!:-D

8:44pm: Lifes confusing....
Hey everyone.... wow today was fun, tirdsome, and hott!! Man it was so hott it got up to 95 today! I went swimming at this landing and Petty cut my foot on the dock!! I have alot on my mind. And all i wanna do is sleep. I have to study for testing, sleep, paint my toenails, and i have a really bad headache!!! I am thinking about everything.... and whether i am making the right descision... i don't know!! i guess i will take everything as it comes i guess!!!


Luv Always, Tiffaney

Sorry i didn't wanna type....

It kills when something is wrong but all u do is smile cause its who u are!!!:-D

10:53pm: I WiSh EvErYtHiNg DIDN'T HaPpEn To Me!!!!
Hey Everyone! Today was kinda cool! I don't feel good.... thats what alcohol does to ya! Well i woke up at Blake's house! MAn o MAn last night was fun!!!! Everyone was drunk! lmao!!! We went swimming at 1 in the morning...and stayed up til 5.... everyone was out by then. But i couldn't sleep. I am thinking about to much. I guess i let my feelings take control of me but for some reason i think its a little more that my feelings. So i think i am going to listen but i have to know that i am risking alot if i do. Yeah but last night me, petty, mark, and cody woke up and put makeup on justin....painted his toenails. and i drew a dick on his face with the fag written on his forehead! That bitch was pissed when he woke up!!! lol then we woke up at 9 cause people had to be places with a hangover! lol I woke up ate some pancakes helped blake pick up his house. Then after i went home with mary and leah and went to the beach. we dropped mary off and went to subway EAT FRESH!The water was warm at the beach!!! Then we came back i took a shower and picked up blake and went to get my hair cuts!!! lol AFter that we went over to petty's and mark was there we left and went to Beef O Brady's. I saw a couple people i knew. After we left went to blackbuster to see cody we left and went bowling. It was fun but now my muscle in my arm hurts. I am now back at Blake's watching bruce almighty. So i am going to get back to that.... i haven't really talked to Ryan... but i think i need too!!!


Luv Always, Tiffaney

I don't know why everything bad has to happen to me.... maybe cause he knows i can take it!!!

SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE.... PARRRTY!

7:41pm: PARRRRRRTY!!!
Hey everyone! Finally is fucking Friday!!! yay! Today went well considering it flew by because its the end of the week! But the thing that sucks is that its gonna be allll testing next week!!! Man o man! First period flew by and i passed that class and that was the only one i failed when reports cards came out! So i'm good i think! Then second period was lame i still have thos worksheets to do! The third we had a sub adn the guys were passing around a porno! yay! lmao! Fourth i dicked around and did w/e i wanted to! Then the best subject of the day.... LUNCH! Nothing really happening the guys were throwing papers at me and it pissed me off! So i kicked their butts! Then 5th was lame... i did Lindsey's hair and took pics! Then 6ths flew by and i left after that! I told my mom to call and sign me out! Then i elft with Sara and we went and got her check...went to her dad's work... and went ot get her hair cut! After i saw Chris at the hair salon cause his mommmy works there!!! And i asked her to cut my hair so she is doing it tomarrow! Then me and Chris went to Dawtah! Cause he wanted to apply for the job! I fell asleep driving back and i went home with him took a shower and ate. Then we're having a party out at BLAKES!!!:-d So we are here doing that! Its me,Robbie,Wes,Chris,Blake,Petty,Cody, and thats about it but more people are coming DUH!!! lmao! Well i will update tomarrow cause they keep trying to read the shit! lmao! ttyl bye!!!


Luv Always, TIffaney

WE GET OUT THE 28TH!!!!!!!:-d I MISS RYAN! AND HES COMING DOWN IN A WEEK! *YAY*

5:05pm: CaN'T WaIt TiL SuMmEr!!!
I'm kinda just like w/e right now! This morning was okay. We aren't aloud to wear flip flops to schol anymore. What a way to fucking poster it right at the end of the school year. EH? Well i don't care cause it to fucking hott to wear anything else. Well anyways. I can't wait til summer man i only have 6 more days til the school year is over! Thats not including the weekend! Well anyways lemme tell u about my fabulous day at my school!
I woke up late. But its okay cause i took a shower at night. But i hate doing that cause mkost people when they take a shower at night and shit they look all grungy in the morning! LMAO! Well i scrunched my hair so it wasn't all oevr the place. The i talked to Ryan this morning and he told me that when he called me at 12 last night i was mad and started yelling at him. And the funny thing is that i don't remember any of that! haha! Then i went to school. And in first period we watched this gay ass movie and i swear its a porno cause all they show is these gurls titties cause its like a tribe in the rainforest. lmao anyways. Second period i didn't get to leave like i usually do so i stayed cause i have like 5 worksheets to do. And i yelled at this one gurl cause i swear shes a fucking lesbian cause whenever her friend leaves her she starts crying and whining and shit! i was like why don't u two just fucking go out u fucking nasties! Then in third i took a test and i hope i pass that class cause all i get is 40's in that fucking class. Then in fourth i sat around and shit. its photo no one cares! The lunch came and jessica and tray got into a pie fight. lol it was funny! Then 5th i yelled at two more dumbasses! that get on my nerves!, 6th and 7th period flew by and i left! My ride ditched me and i haven't talked to her! I need a car seriously! WHO THE FUCK HAS THEIR LLICENCE AND DOESN'T DRIVE TO SCHOOOL?!?! i think that is fucking gay if u ask me!!!Ryan called me, for once, after school. He got his cell phone taken away and his mom and dad won't give it back! Then i talked to him for awhile!
What i need to do it go study! I think i am going to study and do these god damn worksheets for Geography!!!! Then talk to Ryan!!!! PEACE NIGGAS!!!

Luv Always, Tiffaney Marie